Why can’t it be winter already
I’m honestly so done right now. I’m such a good friend but there’s only so much that I can take. She constantly lies to me and tells me different stories and lies by omission that I’m over it. Just because quotes say things like oh couples that fight to be together are meant to be together doesn’t mean anything, they’re out of context when she uses them. Those little romantic couple quotes are only meant for those couples that treat each other right. That one half of that couple doesn’t treat the other half like a doormat. She lets him get away with anything and says that just becasue she forgives him she’ll never forget and she won’t let him get away with it. He’s getting away with it because you’re still with him time and time again. That’s not romantic that’s selfish and what are you teaching your children about relationships. You’re saying that what daddy does to mommy is okay and it’s not. Because she doesn’t want to be alone when it’s in her life’s best interest, she’s being selfish.
So today, in my class, this guy and this girl just broke up, so she left class early because we were all in the same group together. So I said “This is why you should say single” or something to that affect, and i said that i have been single for 19 years. He was taken aback and said “you never had a boyfriend.” Obviously I said no. Still in shock he asked like quietly was I a virgin. I said yeah like he should have known that, because basically in my high school everybody knew this about me. It’s not a big deal to me. He seriously was so surprised because he said “well in college I just assumed everybody is doing it.” To me in high school, I didn’t see any of the guys I went to school with as men, I saw them as boys. Like to me they were basically Ken dolls with a little smooth area down there. I told him that too. He seriously said “guys don’t like virgins.” What crack has he been smoking! If that were true then the population would have already ceased to exist. My friend who was in the middle of us said that wasn’t true. Thank you that somebody has sense. I mean if you had an option to buy a new or used car what would you pick? This logic, can’t really be applied to guys. lol But he still is really taken aback and thinks it’s funny that I am indeed a virgin. To me, it’s not a big deal that he finds this funny. I think it’s funny that he finds it funny. For me, it’s normal that I am. I’m a freaking unicorn and I’m more than cool with it. Just thought I’d tell you about my day lol
So, I haven’t written on her for a while. I was going to just incorporate my personal blog with my regular blog. Eh, I guess I really do both.
Right now I feel lonely. Like I don’t want to be that girl who’s like I want a boyfriend every freaking post, but I do. I want that extension of me if that makes sense. I want some to hold and to hold me. Fuck, I want a boyfriend.
you know how parents just want to protect you? i get that. but sometimes i feel as if they don’t want their child to live. i understand they don’t want their child making the mistakes they made, and we get that and understand that, but it is as if we don’t get to experience anything if we listen every single time. life is about lessons. we can’t learn our own lessons if you keep taking the exams for us. let us make mistakes. life is no fun if you don’t have a couple nicks and scars to show for it. being trapped in a bubble is no life. if people never questioned each other we would still be living in the dark ages. live and make mistakes. we’re human. its the definition of to make mistakes.